Well we are being hit by a big snow storm so no work day . Which I'm fine with . To be honest I see why people who can retire in thier 50s do so . My body , my mind just doesn't have the energy it once did . That is fine but makes me realize I need to find something my body can do till I can retire from day to day work . Usually on these days I just chill , read some , listen to music and maybe a movie . Might as well enjoy the day . Now back to music time 👍
Monday, February 13, 2017
Friday, February 10, 2017
Scars , Hurts and Healing
Once again its been a eternity since my last post . Often I wonder why people blog everyday . Is it just vanity , hoping people read about your life and inflate ones sense of self . I don't know and I guess that is a judgement only the individual can make .
I thought I wanted to write each day or almost each day , but again walked away . However this time I want it to be different , so I will begin to discipline myself and hopefully blog once again on a regular basis . Mainly for my own sanity lol .
It is funny how watching a movie can trigger many feelings and thoughts . I watched A Monster Calls today and highly recommended it . I will not review here but the theme of loss and how one deals with those emotions really triggered in me so many thoughts .
The scars and hurt of losing someone never really leave you . Really they just hide beneath a surface so shallow that it takes but a pin prick to bring those emotions to the surface . As of late I have been thinking about my cousin and one like a brother to me that I mentioned on this blog almost 2 years ago now . As it is almost the 2 year mark of his taking his own life , perhaps that is why he has been on my mind .
Its always difficult to move on past any loss but suicide seems more haunting and difficult to handle . One goes through many emotions of anger , guilt that mix together . Anger that one took ones own life and guilt in wondering is or was there something I could have done . But this is a broken , fallen world marred and scarred by sin . Sometimes there are no easy resolutions , no stupid hallmark card pithy sentiments that are true . It still sucks what happened and no matter what , time will not heal or remove the hurt , pain and loss .
Healing will only fully come when Jesus comes again in all his glory to once and for all end sin , death and a new creation comes . It is then that God will wipe away tears , heal all hurts and no more will sorrow or pain of the soul mark ones days . That is the hope and only hope of breaking the cycle of sorrow . Until then , I think God allows us to feel that hurt , that sorrow because He wants us to know things are not right . Yes he does not leave us to grieve as one without hope but that does not mean that despair or a long night of the soul cannot come upon even those who believe . But when we are there and tears come or our heart aches , may we hear he voice of Jesus and go to him for rest for our weary souls .
Lets not sugar coat this world , it is yes full of much delight and many amazing gifts but it is also not what it once was , or what it should be . So may we press on , trusting God in Christ that this world is not our home but a much better a more wonderful home awaits . By that I mean we who have trusted Christ for forgiveness of our sins and live in repentance , will enjoy God forever and then our scars and hurts will be healed perfectly and completely , forever .
I thought I wanted to write each day or almost each day , but again walked away . However this time I want it to be different , so I will begin to discipline myself and hopefully blog once again on a regular basis . Mainly for my own sanity lol .
It is funny how watching a movie can trigger many feelings and thoughts . I watched A Monster Calls today and highly recommended it . I will not review here but the theme of loss and how one deals with those emotions really triggered in me so many thoughts .
The scars and hurt of losing someone never really leave you . Really they just hide beneath a surface so shallow that it takes but a pin prick to bring those emotions to the surface . As of late I have been thinking about my cousin and one like a brother to me that I mentioned on this blog almost 2 years ago now . As it is almost the 2 year mark of his taking his own life , perhaps that is why he has been on my mind .
Its always difficult to move on past any loss but suicide seems more haunting and difficult to handle . One goes through many emotions of anger , guilt that mix together . Anger that one took ones own life and guilt in wondering is or was there something I could have done . But this is a broken , fallen world marred and scarred by sin . Sometimes there are no easy resolutions , no stupid hallmark card pithy sentiments that are true . It still sucks what happened and no matter what , time will not heal or remove the hurt , pain and loss .
Healing will only fully come when Jesus comes again in all his glory to once and for all end sin , death and a new creation comes . It is then that God will wipe away tears , heal all hurts and no more will sorrow or pain of the soul mark ones days . That is the hope and only hope of breaking the cycle of sorrow . Until then , I think God allows us to feel that hurt , that sorrow because He wants us to know things are not right . Yes he does not leave us to grieve as one without hope but that does not mean that despair or a long night of the soul cannot come upon even those who believe . But when we are there and tears come or our heart aches , may we hear he voice of Jesus and go to him for rest for our weary souls .
Lets not sugar coat this world , it is yes full of much delight and many amazing gifts but it is also not what it once was , or what it should be . So may we press on , trusting God in Christ that this world is not our home but a much better a more wonderful home awaits . By that I mean we who have trusted Christ for forgiveness of our sins and live in repentance , will enjoy God forever and then our scars and hurts will be healed perfectly and completely , forever .
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